***** REad the below post first-please some key important parts that I left out!******

So , I forgot to mention whether I am in love or not-Here is the precious story. L tells me Sunday as he gives me a Promise Ring that he is in love with me-all things about me-it was so sweet how he phrased it, but he also added" Baby, just b/c I am in love wiyh you and telling you this-YOU DO NOT have to say it back-it is how I feel about you. Well, I have the 2 times that I have been in love ALWAYS been the one to say it first-So we went on to dinner- and I started praying about it immediately-I KNEW that I had undeniably incredible feelings for him and who je is what he does-you get the drift. So I prayed and prayed and prayed Sun. night and Mon. that God would give me wisdom that I needed in this situation. So fast foward to Monday night, we were at his apt getting ready to go to Misti's-and ya'll for her to like my bf the person I am dating is a BIG deal-she is harder on them than my dad, but she loves L and Most OF ALL she loves L and I together.But back to the apt-we were just playing around sweet-he was tickling me and giving me sweet short peck kisses. and it hit me like aTON of bricks and the words came out "I love you too baby!" He gave me the strongest sweetest hug that I have EVER recieved-and it lasted about 5 maybe longer hug and just held me while we were standing in is room. I was so proud of myself that I had not cried-I am a crier when something touches my heart. Well, I ate my words as Misti and I had our weekly"The Bachelor" date, that my boyfriend didn't sulk but got into it. Well as the roses were being passed out- I thought anout how I had desired to be sweetly truly loved, I realized that I now was and I was more than blessed and there come the water works-I am glad that I had my Misti and My baby to hold me and calm me down b/c I could not stop sobbing and explaining that they were tears of joy~:) I am going to try and put a pic of Misti and I up-it is AWFUL of me-but I want everyone to see what a GORGEOUS best friend I have-this girl has practically saved my life-I was in a badddd place in life-depression, I had anorexia badly-like weighed 106 at 5'9.5", cried constantly-I was just miserable-agoraphobic you name it but Satan had such a strong ho;d on my life-well Misti and I had met 6 years earlier through her younger sister Ashley and she was a COMPLETELY different person-we were not very fond of each other, but Misti showed up at Ashley's house Ash's baby shower, and she introduced herself-Ashley then said-Misti that's BARI- and I expolained that the dramatic weight loiss of 90+-remember I was very Anorexic at this point- and she instantly gave me a hug-we have been attached at the hip ever since that day and I am so thankful for the blessing that she is to me and for new beginnings!!! I do not know what I wou;d do w/o her -we know exactly what to say at thye right time and she is the person no matter how bad it hurts , that can be honest withme-only to make me better-even if it might hurt my feelings-I am a sensitive one!!!! But I work on what she tells me and she is the ONLY person who has ever been able to do this but she does it constructively. Oh, and about her screening the boys that I used to date-she hated all of them but Luther-and she tells me that she has been praying and has such as peace as do I-but we will see!!!Off to bed!!!