***** REad the below post first-please some key important parts that I left out!******

So , I forgot to mention whether I am in love or not-Here is the precious story. L tells me Sunday as he gives me a Promise Ring that he is in love with me-all things about me-it was so sweet how he phrased it, but he also added" Baby, just b/c I am in love wiyh you and telling you this-YOU DO NOT have to say it back-it is how I feel about you. Well, I have the 2 times that I have been in love ALWAYS been the one to say it first-So we went on to dinner- and I started praying about it immediately-I KNEW that I had undeniably incredible feelings for him and who je is what he does-you get the drift. So I prayed and prayed and prayed Sun. night and Mon. that God would give me wisdom that I needed in this situation. So fast foward to Monday night, we were at his apt getting ready to go to Misti's-and ya'll for her to like my bf the person I am dating is a BIG deal-she is harder on them than my dad, but she loves L and Most OF ALL she loves L and I together.But back to the apt-we were just playing around sweet-he was tickling me and giving me sweet short peck kisses. and it hit me like aTON of bricks and the words came out "I love you too baby!" He gave me the strongest sweetest hug that I have EVER recieved-and it lasted about 5 maybe longer hug and just held me while we were standing in is room. I was so proud of myself that I had not cried-I am a crier when something touches my heart. Well, I ate my words as Misti and I had our weekly"The Bachelor" date, that my boyfriend didn't sulk but got into it. Well as the roses were being passed out- I thought anout how I had desired to be sweetly truly loved, I realized that I now was and I was more than blessed and there come the water works-I am glad that I had my Misti and My baby to hold me and calm me down b/c I could not stop sobbing and explaining that they were tears of joy~:) I am going to try and put a pic of Misti and I up-it is AWFUL of me-but I want everyone to see what a GORGEOUS best friend I have-this girl has practically saved my life-I was in a badddd place in life-depression, I had anorexia badly-like weighed 106 at 5'9.5", cried constantly-I was just miserable-agoraphobic you name it but Satan had such a strong ho;d on my life-well Misti and I had met 6 years earlier through her younger sister Ashley and she was a COMPLETELY different person-we were not very fond of each other, but Misti showed up at Ashley's house Ash's baby shower, and she introduced herself-Ashley then said-Misti that's BARI- and I expolained that the dramatic weight loiss of 90+-remember I was very Anorexic at this point- and she instantly gave me a hug-we have been attached at the hip ever since that day and I am so thankful for the blessing that she is to me and for new beginnings!!! I do not know what I wou;d do w/o her -we know exactly what to say at thye right time and she is the person no matter how bad it hurts , that can be honest withme-only to make me better-even if it might hurt my feelings-I am a sensitive one!!!! But I work on what she tells me and she is the ONLY person who has ever been able to do this but she does it constructively. Oh, and about her screening the boys that I used to date-she hated all of them but Luther-and she tells me that she has been praying and has such as peace as do I-but we will see!!!Off to bed!!!

Ask and it shall be given.......

So, just Friday I know that anyone-btw-please leave me a comment I would love to hear and know who you are!!!! I want some blog friends!!!! Anyway-so I know ya'll are like-Bari, just Friday you were single and know you are in love???Well, sweet ones here's the story. Luther and I met on a dating website 3 years ago and went on a date-it went well, but the timing was not God's YET!!! I liked another guy-I think he was interested in another girl, but we have stayed friends for 3 years just casually. One thing that ALWAYS stuck out about him though was how affectionate he was and that I was having a laparoscopy for my endometriosis and cysts on my ovary-I am sorry if that is TMI-but it is true-and I am going to write a post about that later-....back to the story-even tough we had decided to judt be friends, I get home and there is the most BEAUTIFUL Bouquet of Calla lillies and roses and babies breathe and I am not sure what else, but I am not exagerating when I say THE MOST BEAUTIFUL- even to this day-I am sure it cost him a pretty penny! Well, I knew then that he was special and whoever got him was going to be a lucky girl! Well,as I said before we stayed friendly e-mailed every so often, then 2 weeks ago he asked for my #-of course!! Well, he asked me to have dinner with him-I have never been on a date where I was treated so well, and any of you that know me know that I have been used, and treated anything but well, many, many hours of crying and not understanding why I was such a sweet person and I give back in relationships could not findJUST 1 who would treat me right-Well, sweet ones-it was God teaching me patience.I for the first time in my life, besides my dad, am being treated like a princess by a man. I am so thanksul that I show it in my own way of cleaning his apartment-not much to clean the boy is neat, and doing his laundry-I would iron, ibut he doesn't own one-and no he IS NOT a wrinkled medd-he bdoes the dryer trick-and it actually works but being a tall female with lons arms-I cannot put a Small or Medium shirt in the dryer without the sleeves drawing up-I mean to be 5'9" I have the longest arms known to man!!!! thank you daddy-LOL!! Anyway-isn't god funny how He works if we will just keep the faith and let Him teach us our lessons-mine was patience in this instance-so I know the questions will come-You have only dated for 2 weeks and you know you are in love?? Well, I think when it is a God thing you know, and my heart had grown fond of him over time, and since Thursday night we have been together every day. My best friend, Misti, even loves him-and us together.Speaking of Misti, my heart is dying for her right now, I am not at liberty to say why, but PLEASE keep her in your prayers-she is the strongest girl I know, and I knbow that she will get through this hard time, but she even knows not without the Lord. I am so thankful for these special peopkw in my life and I feel overly blessed right now. Thank you Jesus-I know that You did not have to pay me back for the hard times but you and Your Amazing Love have gone above and beyond!

Lord, I need help trusting You.....

So, since the last post so much has happened-so many dates-so little time-JUST KIDDING!!! No, I have been going on a lot of dates-but I just wonder-when Lord-or for that matter-is there one out there for me Lord? But in Jeremiah, He tells me that He knows the plans that He has for me-PLANS TO PROSPER ME!!!! TO GIVE ME A HOPE AND A FUTURE!!!!-In stead of trusting my will-and going on date after date after endless date that go nowhere-Why do I not trust His infinite wisdom like so many of my great Christian girlfriends that are in GREAT Christian marriages have done? Another verse of inspiration that I fully need to surrender to is Psalm 37:4-"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." Now I do not know if this means he will change the disires of my heart, or give me the wish of my heart-but He will do what it is what He promises, b/c HE IS FAITHFUL!!!!!
On another note-He is faithful in all areas of life!!!! Yeah, about the wreck that I wrote about, the car ended up being scrapped, and I felt like a month was FOREVER with NO CAR!!! Well, SANTA aka my best friend and dad, delivered a 2001 Hunter Green Acura Integra on Christmas Eve-I know, perfect timing, no less-The Lord blessed me with the best daddy ever-especially when he took my mom at the early age- when she was 48 and I was 23, the Lord knew I needed an extra special daddy-and He provided that- so why should I not trust not trust Him in all areas of my life?

Roll Tide Roll-and a wreck!!

Well, I of course am a HUGE Bama fan-and to actually break the fear the thumb of last year felt sooo good-not even a field go Aubies, so hmmm... take that one!!!:) The wreck part of this title comes b/c I totalled my trusty Focus that I never had 1 problem out of. Let's just say that Christmas shopping at the Summit on 280=not so good idea!!!.I wasn't more hurt than I could have been-except broken ribs, and a contusion to the head-no stitches reqired -thank you Jesus! But no car-I was going to get a new car, but I DO NOT reccomend this way!!!! Anyway-OH YEAH!!!! Blake and Amber had their 4th boy!!! Judah Riley Hickman came on his due date. So, if my daddy ever has a granddaughter-I am his only hope-and as prissy as I am-I dated a guy that had an 11 yr old son, and 5 year o;d daughter, and girls are a handful!!!!!I just pray that the Lord will send me the desire of my heart in a good Christian man who loves Jesus! Speaking of-I have a GREAT date Friday night-amazing guy-so please pray if you read this b4 7p Friday night!!! Oh , and on a lighter note-I went shopping Frisay-CRAZY, huuh?? NEVER AGAIN! But vanity sizing is CRAZY! I am 5'9" 117 and I have not eorn a size 2 since I was anorexic in Highschool, but that is what Old Navy said and Gap-well I didn't even know that a 0 existed! I felt soooo happy!!! But all who are reading-PPLEASE DO NOT WORRY!!!! I am seeing my psychiatrist-love her to death-she is my age! and my psychologist 1 timw a week at least -on a good week-if it is a bad week, then I may see her pretuy face 3 times a week! I love you alll-in His unfailing grace and love!~Bari Claire

ROLLLL TIDDDEEE!!!!!!

Well, I am officially scared!!! I know all yo Bama fans are thinking--Bari-what in the world are you talking about, but-ALLL season long, I have told my dad and all my good Bama friends that I have the weirdest feeling that we are going to win all of our games this season until the dreaded Auburn. I am SERIOUSLY going to fast and pray-and I know what so man of you are saying-Bari-this is not a life or death situation, BUT after 6 years-We deserve at least one finger-and I am not yalking about fearing the thumb-lol-no I am not vulgar-just a Bama fan that wants my beloved team to beat AU this year it so badly it is not funny!!!!ROLL TIDE!!!! Oh, on a side note-my dad is consideriing getting me the new Crackberry-keep your fingers crossed!!! I love you all!!! I hope that EVERYONE counts their blessings this weeks-b/c we are all so blessed, and we need to be-How blessed we all are!!! Count your blessings!! In His Unfailing Love~Bari

My sweet kitty Dolly is sick and has been since Friday-please say a prayer for her!!! This is my dad and my baby!!! I just hope that when we took her to the vet Friday and she was running 104.4, that it has to do with something with the way she has been acting, but it will kill me if something wrong with this baby. Please say your prayers!!! Love to all!!!~Bari